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Red Clocks Is Even Scarier Than The Handmaid's Tale — Here's Why

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In the not-so-distant future in America, abortion and IVF have been constitutionally outlawed in all 50 states. Canada closes its checkpoints to abortion-seekers, sealing the border with a symbolic "pink wall" and returning suspicious young women to the United States for prosecution. With the passage of the Every Child Needs Two Act, single parents are summarily banned from the adoption process. And illegal "Termination Centers," run out of back alleyways and abandoned, dilapidated houses, warp the defiant choice to end a pregnancy into a potentially lethal decision.

Such is the through-the-looking-glass world of Leni Zumas's harrowing Red Clocks — a novel so uncannily close to the US's own surreal political dystopia, Congress can expect to see a spike in concerned calls.

Zumas's narrative moves between a chorus of women quietly grappling with their terrifying new reality — a single 40-something craving a baby of her own, an exhausted mother trapped in a loveless marriage, a freshly-pregnant teenager facing her fate alone, and the subversive, off-the-grid healer who binds them all together. Set in a small Northwestern town somewhere outside Portland, the book vibrates with the nerve-jangling claustrophobia of a seismic cultural shift — a spectral panic as diffuse and ever-present as the Oregon fog. But for Zumas, the complete erosion of women's rights doesn't need Atwood's genre-defining crimson cloaks or starched caps — just the enthusiastic signatures of a few charismatic, white-haired senators. It's The Handmaid's Tale, stripped of all its fantasy, for Mike Pence's America.

Red Clocks finds its emotional center in a profoundly relatable feeling. Ro, a single, middle-aged teacher still fighting to become a mother, watches her government careen towards ratifying a Personhood Amendment without ever truly believing it could be possible (until, of course, it's too late). "When Congress passed the Twenty-Eighth Amendment to the U.S. Constitution and it was sent to the states for a vote, [she] wrote emails to her representatives. Marched in protests in Salem and Portland. Donated to Planned Parenthood. But she wasn't all that worried. It had to be political theatre, a flexing of muscle by the conservative-controlled House and Senate in league with a foetus-loving new President."

Red Clocks unfolds in the amendment's nightmarish aftershocks, with no bold revolutionary solutions to save its female characters from the brutal restrictions on their bodies. Instead, Zumas gives us an all-too-familiar portrait of women trying to rebuild their lives, somehow, in the chasm of lingering disbelief.

"I went through my whole life assuming Roe Vs. Wade was pretty untouchable," Zumas explained to Refinery29. "But when I started doing research into reproductive rights in the U.S., I discovered that Mike Pence and Paul Ryan have both supported foetal personhood amendments. It's all so hard to follow in the chaos, though. The Republican tax bill, for example, had language saying that an unborn child could be the beneficiary of a college savings account, which sets up a precedent for reversing Roe Vs. Wade."

Zumas's story isn't just a chilling exaggeration of the insidious pro-life climate that's saturated American politics for decades, however. "I have a son — he just turned 5 — and he was conceived by IVF," Zumas said. "During the process, I started noticing that there was so much anger from people about the morality of IVF — that it's unnatural, that you shouldn't be allowed to do it, that it's better to choose adoption." Thinking about the dangerous mythology tangling the "right" kinds of mothering to womanhood led Zumas to consider all the ways it impacts our power to earn an income, to develop a creative voice, and, above all, to push back against abuse. "Our bodies and selves are in danger if we don't please someone else," she explained. "It can be a survival method to smile, to acquiesce, to do that extra task, but, clearly, we still pay a price."

Experiencing IVF also made her more aware of the many women who can't access reproductive technologies — how the possibility of motherhood is sometimes a question of privilege. "That pushed me to consider what would happen if no one could have IVF — if evangelical zealots got their way. If you couldn't get pregnant naturally, you couldn't get pregnant at all." The body, Red Clocks proves, is a cruelly efficient kind of prison — an object of constant suspicion and betrayal, plagued by unwanted pregnancies, silent ultrasounds, deadly infections from botched abortions.

In the end, Zumas's deftly woven story leaves us in awe of the power of quiet defiance — the exhausting, morally opaque work of choosing autonomy, even in a world completely unmade. A book as lyrical as it is devastatingly honest, Red Clocks fast-forwards to the time after you've marched and called and voted, showing us all the complexities and pains of life in the aftermath. As Ro tells her students, in a moment of mingled hope and resignation, "by walking is how you make the road."

Red Clocks is published in the UK on 8th March

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Supermodel Sisters Bella & Gigi Cover British Vogue

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Two of the world's biggest models of the moment have just been unveiled as separate cover stars of the latest issue of British Vogue. For the first time ever, sisters Bella, 21, and Gigi, 22, appear on dual covers of a magazine. Shot by Steven Meisel, the siblings also feature together in a touching black-and-white image, bodies entwined in an intimate portrait of sisterly love.

For their solo cover shots, both sisters wear gold chainmail Versace gowns, instantly recognisable from the seminal SS18 show last September in Milan, where original supermodels Naomi Campbell, Carla Bruni, Cindy Crawford, Helena Christensen and Claudia Schiffer all reunited on the catwalk in tribute to Gianni Versace. The gilded issue (the fourth from new editor-in-chief Edward Enninful), also features gold lettering for the Vogue logo and cover lines. The sisters are styled by Joe McKenna, with hair by Guido Palau and makeup – a radiant, golden glow to match the golden gowns and typography – by Vogue 's new beauty editor-at-large, Pat McGrath.

Following the January issue covered by pop superstar Taylor Swift and the Hollywood New Era issue for February, fronted by Australian actresses Margot Robbie and Nicole Kidman, the March edition reverts to supermodel cover stars for the major Spring Fashion issue. Back in June 2015, the Hadids appeared on a magazine cover for the first time together, for the Autumn/Winter issue of V, but this is the first time they have appeared on separate covers for the same issue.

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The March issue, which marks Gigi's third British Vogue cover, also features an interview with designer Miuccia Prada on the past, present and future of the Italian fashion house as well as an insight into the secret life of Picasso, as told by the artist's granddaughter.

In an accompanying interview to the cover story, Gigi opens up to Vogue about her special relationship with her little sister, reminiscing about watching over baby Bella in her crib: “I feel like that is symbolic of my entire life. To watch over Bella. She’s one of the only people I’ll get aggressive for. She makes me so proud. I would do anything for her.”

See the full shoot in the March issue of British Vogue, on sale on Friday 2nd February.

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Why You Should Stop Worrying About Failure & Embrace Quitting

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"If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again." That was the phrase my year five maths teacher extolled with a smile after informing me that I’d be repeating the test I failed in detention. I remember rolling my eyes and thinking, 'I don’t like maths, I don’t want to succeed and I don’t want to miss the Fresh Prince of Bel Air '.

But as the years went on, that headstrong little girl disappeared and I turned into someone who prioritised what she should do over what she really wanted. I refused to give up on anything or anyone, often to my own detriment. The boyfriend who constantly played mind games, the friend of over 10 years who belittled me at every opportunity and the job I felt unfulfilled in but stuck out because quitting always equated to failure.

The fear of what will follow when you decide to give up on something is deep-rooted, explains psychologist and co-director of Positive Change Guru, Gill Thackray.

"Committing to something – be it a resolution, job, or partner is akin to making a promise or giving your word. Failing publicly can bring on feelings of embarrassment and paranoia about what people will think of you going forward. Failing privately can often be even worse on the psyche as we really can be our own worst critics."

Failing privately can be worse than failing publicly because we really can be our own worst critics.

I could wholeheartedly relate to these sentiments until I recently decided to quit learning to row. Frankly, rowing was a lot harder than I thought, and meant waking up early every Saturday. In quitting I had a lightbulb moment. Letting go of something that didn’t serve me, although slightly embarrassing (since I’d told everyone I was doing it) instantly brought a sense of relief and empowerment and I realised that perhaps giving up other things in my life didn’t have to be fraught with such anxiety and seen as a failure.

Author Daisy Buchanan agrees. "When my dream job coincided with a massive relapse of my anxiety disorder, I was forced to question everything. When it hit me that the one thing that would make me happier was walking out of the office and never going back, I agonised over whether I should quit or not. However, when I started fantasising about being knocked down by a bus so I didn’t have to go in to work, I knew it was time to leave. It felt as though I was leaping into the dark but once I began to look at this as an opportunity to live a life that I loved, everything immediately became brighter and lighter. I discovered that there was no shame in giving up, in fact by quitting I finally put myself first."

How you construct your inner dialogue can determine the effects of quitting. It’s no surprise that we frame failure in negative terms – flunking a test gets you detention, quitting a job prematurely has future employers questioning your work ethic, and the end of a relationship always brings about self-doubt. But what if we began to see failure as a tool for positive growth?

Research in this area from Stanford University professor Carol Dweck could be life-changing. Dweck, who coined the terms 'growth mindset' and 'fixed mindset', discovered that as humans we either possess a fixed mindset and see failure as all-defining, or a growth mindset, which acknowledges failure as the route to mastery, goal accomplishment and ultimately success.

If you possess a fixed mindset, you’ll not only be more self-critical but will worry that others will judge you if you quit something you’ve committed yourself to. While those with a growth mindset personality have the aptitude to recognise when something isn't working, analyse what happened, learn from it and adapt their strategy going forward – which means they have no qualms about quitting in order to reap the benefits later down the line. The good news is that if you don’t operate that way naturally, you can learn to develop a growth mindset. The key is to "reframe your thinking, and transition a negative mindset into a positive one," says Thackray.

"I’ve never been one to look at my life from a place of negativity; to see things as black and white, or good or bad. Which is why when I quit my fundraising job that saw me advise the government, I didn’t feel anxious at all," shares comedian Sarah Southern. "When I stopped getting the job satisfaction I craved, I went to see a life coach who challenged me to try stand-up comedy. It opened the creative side of me that I’d totally forgotten existed. In one year alone I did 50 gigs, and even performed at the Edinburgh Festival. Leaving a steady salary and a really good pension was a risk but not taking the leap and trying something different might have been a bigger regret."

It’s not just unfulfilling work situations that we find hard to let go of. Relationships can be harder still, especially if they look picture-perfect to the outside world. Marketing manager Jenny Shaw says: "When I met Dan I'd been single for a while and had forgotten all those perks of being a couple – someone to go on holiday with, a person to help change the lightbulb. I quickly settled into the reassurance that comes with being a two. Everyone really liked him and things were good but there was just something that wasn't 100% right. My friends thought I was mad, but after just over two years I decided to finish things.

"It took three false starts; we kept getting back together because, after all, he hadn't done anything 'wrong' and I'd have awful pangs of loneliness but now, six months on, I'm so happy I did it. I'm still single and yes, I do get lonely sometimes but I like myself so much more – hanging onto something that I knew wasn't right didn't make me feel good about myself. I actually felt like I couldn't trust my own instincts and that made me doubt myself in other ways, like in decisions at work or issues with friends, and left me wondering if I really knew my own mind."

And that’s the part of quitting that so many of us fail to acknowledge: Throwing in the towel is not a passive move, it’s a calculated action that’s empowering and screams, ‘I know my own mind and refuse to do anything that doesn’t make me happy, no matter what anyone thinks of me’, because at the end of the day, it’s what you think of you that matters.

So if you’ve cast some New Year’s Resolutions aside because they actually weren’t working for you (I gave up on 6am workouts, one week in), don’t waste time feeling bad about it. I’m not.
If you’re standing at the precipice, unsure whether to quit something bigger, then it might be time to leap.

Thackray's advice: "Just learn to tune in to your inner voice and decipher why you really want to give up. If it’s because you’re scared of failing, persevere, but if you feel like something is wrong for you in your gut, quitting is the way forward."

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The Most Instagrammable Gyms In London

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When did gyms become fancy? Not too long ago, we were content with our workout spaces smelling like old socks and residing in a leisure centre with a café that served egg and cress sandwiches on white bread.

Now, new gyms are built to look GOOD. Sure, they're still there to get you fit but chances are you're more likely to keep going back to a place that you feel good about walking into.

Nowhere is this more evident than London. And it makes sense – if your house is a dingy studio flat with no windows, why wouldn't you want your gym to look nice? Here, we round up some of the best looking places to work out.

BLOK Shoreditch

This brand new branch of BLOK (the other one's in Clapton) was built, like its predecessor, with design in mind and with a view to creating a space where people would want to hang out before and after class (hence the café that doubles up as a gallery and workspace).

BLOK offers 25 different classes, from barre to yoga to HIIT, which cost between £10-17.

Find out more information here.

Another Space

Anyone who's visited the Covent Garden branch of Another Space knows that it's worth forgoing a night out in order to book yourself a class as a treat at this luxury classes-only space.

Now, Another Space has opened another location in Bank, which has an even bigger changing room (plenty of showers and yes, Cowshed products everywhere). There's still HIIT, yoga and spin on offer and it's £20 a class (although buying in bulk does sweeten the deal.

Find out more information here.

Heartcore

Mainly based in west London, the nine studios of Heartcore grew out of their signature dynamic Pilates workout (they now also do barre and strength and conditioning training). All their studios are pretty swanky but it's the Notting Hill one we're partial to.

It's not cheap (£25 for a single class) but hey, if you're looking for a payday treat, a Heartcore session is probably going to be a lot more nourishing than a bottle of prosecco.

Find out more here.

Frame Fitzrovia

The newest addition to Frame's fast-growing collection of gyms is smack dab in the middle of Soho – very handy for plenty of people. As expected, it's bright, colourful and welcoming, and their biggest yet. They've even got a reformer Pilates studio and 17 whole showers! No more queuing.

Enter our competition below to win a membership.

To celebrate their studio openings in Fitzrovia and Hammersmith, we’ve teamed up with Frame plus a selection of fabulous partners to offer one lucky reader a wonderful start to the new year. We're giving away a Frame membership for you and your BFF PLUS £1,500 worth of prizes from our friends at Urban Massage, Heist Tights and Propercorn. To be in with a chance of winning, it's super simple: enter here before midnight on 11th February.

Equinox

Pretty much the fanciest of the fancy, Equinox's two London venues are naaat cheap. To become a member at their newest gym in St. James, it's £205 a month (and that's not even counting the initiation fee). It does come with the sort of perks you'd jolly well expect, though. Like Kiehl's products in the bathroom. An anti-gravity treadmill. A complimentary laundry valet. USB chargers in the locker.

And yeah, it looks really nice.

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All The New Year's Resolutions I Tried & Failed

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New Year’s Resolutions are the opiate of the masses. Once upon a time it was religion, as my ex-husband Karl Marx said, but in the here and now that opiate has become the much observed, under-critiqued system of the New Year's Resi.

That’s right folks, year on year we fall into the trap of constructed time — relinquishing our Decembers into the pits of spending, food, booze, fags, fisting and festive gifting, aggressively reassuring people, as you inhale your third burger-based dish of the day, that “you’ll be better in Jan” and “what’s another £66 scented candle as a thoughtless gift? I’ll think about the money in Jan!”

Well Jan’s here and, unlike many, I do all of the above while also disregarding New Year's Resolutions onto the trash pile that is marketing tripe (there you can also find: Protein World, Valentine’s Day and Gender Reveal Parties) and hence spend each December gaining impossible amounts of weight, haemorrhaging cash and smoking my lungs into oblivion. So in an attempt to rectify this, I decided to commit to a different resolution a day to see if any of them are what they’re cracked up to be. Spoiler: none of them are (except getting early nights — who knew?).

Dry January

Why make January harder? It’s the first of the month and I’m hanging so deeply that I’ve spiralled into watching reruns of Next — MTV’s pre-social-media-app-extravaganza take on Tinder. The gay one is particularly savage. There’s loads of booze left in the house and it’s taking all my power not to toss back a stunning hair of the dog vodka, lime and soda. 3pm and all my friends start drinking. I start drinking but a honey and hot water (lol). As my friends get progressively more drunk to celebrate the dawn of the new year, I feel both painfully dull and oddly superior. We start watching Room Raiders (the one where prospective dates use a UV light to check if there’s spunk all over someone’s bed) and I think about ordering pizza or a kebab and can’t decide which. I order both. It’s 11pm and my friends open a leftover bottle of Vintage Moët that one of us got as a birthday present ages ago and have been saving for a special occasion. I can’t not have the Vintage Moët. So I have the Vintage Moët. Challenge One: failed.

Spend less

This is harder than not drinking because I have this weird obsession that if I have money in my account I have to pace through it fast in order to rebuild the impetus to make more. It’s January 3rd and I have been invited out to brunch with a few friends, then to go check out the dregs of the sale at Selfridges. I accept because in order to test this resolution I actually have to be put in a scenario where I need to resist the urge. I order toast at brunch and a black coffee, which is the least I’ve ever ordered at a meal, ever. Feeling good, feeling rich. We trundle down to Selfridges, and when we arrive we go straight to shoes. There’s a pair of Balenciaga boots I’ve been wanting all season and they’ve gone down in the sale from £1,895 to £299. I am stunned. I try them on in a size seven — and they’re two sizes too small. I leave them and ask if they can maybe hold them for me. They say yes. I made it through the day spending only £12ish. I am stunned.

Veganuary

Obsessively thinking about the Balenciaga boots so I go back into town (it’s now the 4th) and buy the boots. I love them so much. They are, also, leather so I’ve fucked Veganuary. Nonetheless I try to eat vegan for a day. I go over to a friend’s for dinner who is also a vegan, but her mum is in town — her mum who is famously known for once skinning a dead rabbit and cooking it in a stew in the middle of a party — and has made herself and me a meat dish, not knowing I’m only eating vegan. I tell her and she literally takes it as a joke and laughs intermittently for the whole night at the memory of me going vegan. I eat the Bloody Mary beef cooked in the slow cooker and goddam it’s good. Turns out I need that beef.

Early nights

Since I’ve failed on the vegan front I decide to go home early in the hope to get to bed before 11pm (my usual bedtime is between 1am and 3am — most of my work as a drag queen is at night and the rest of the time I spend socialising or watching niche YouTube vids). I do a face mask and rewatch Grace and Frankie (omg love it so much it’s like a warm bath). I’m in bed by 11pm. I fall asleep. I wake up on the 5th and am feeling like Irene Cara when she wrote "What a Feeling". Finally, something that worked! I wash my sheets to get them ready for another early night. So excited for bed already!

Stop smoking

On the 7th I try to go a day without smoking. I tried this once before and lasted nine months but then I fell off a climbing wall and all I wanted was a cigarette and I had one and now I smoke 30 a day. It gets to 11am and I haven’t had one, but then I spend 20 minutes on the phone to my mum arguing viciously about why Alexandra Burke’s treatment on Strictly Come Dancing was most definitely grounded in racism and misogyny. I literally don’t even notice and before I know it I’m 16 minutes into describing structural oppression and I’m halfway through a fag. I don’t even care.

Self-care

This is something I do think is incredibly important, although I think self-care has been somewhat coopted as a marketing tool for companies to sell you rose stanky bath salts and shit. When I talk about self-care I think it’s about allowing your body and your personality to do what nourishes it. For me, that’s watching videos of kinetic sand being sliced, taking care of my skin, and watching the Lifetime epic movie House of Versace or anything starring Gina Gershon (except 9/11 which was utterly tasteless). I decide to spend a day with my friend doing all of these things. This isn’t really new for me, but I do tidy my room first thing in the morning and I feel incredibly light and decluttered.

Tax return

Once I got a £790 fine from HMRC for failing to complete my tax return, but then I sent them a letter which said, quote, “I’m a hapless drag queen who doesn’t understand the confusing online system set up by our government to actively exclude those who aren’t financially, computer or linguistically literate”. They honestly wiped the whole fee and paid me a rebate I didn’t even know I needed! I do my tax return in one evening, on the 12th, and decide to estimate my expenses in order to just get it done. I underestimate and now my tax bill is here and it’s ruined my January. I have an early night to make myself feel better, and my god do I feel better.

Stop saying well done to mediocre men

I realised that I’ve spent my life congratulating the terrible work of men; men whose work I can honestly top by doing a poo. So on the 18th, I went to see my friend’s show. It was bad and when he came out, instead of saying I thought it was “the best thing I’ve seen on stage in years” I said “what was the message?” He seemed pretty upset and then I felt terrible, so I said “I loved it though, and, like, does art even need to have a message?” Crisis averted but resolution failed. This is something I’m keen to continue but I’m working on ways to do it slightly more productively… Will report back.

See the world

I booked flights to Lisbon on 20th January, but I’m not going until March. I did, however, go to Gypsy Hill for the first time ever on the 11th and that was a hoot. Turns out you need way more flexible cash than I have so this one, like the above, is a work in progress. If anyone wants to take a drag queen to somewhere far-flung, I’m in.

Not losing weight

This is the big one. Every single year of my recallable life I have promised myself at the turn of the new year I would lose weight, having had a pretty dysmorphic and unhealthy relationship with my body and food all the way into my mid-20s. I spent the beginning of last year eating no carbs, a self-punishing choice which led to me fainting on January 31st just after I came off stage. I spent the year reading about fat activism and trying to take up more space with conversations about fat, and this year, for the first time, I looked in the mirror on New Year’s Eve and said “this year you won’t be obsessing about losing weight”. And so far so good — I’ve just eaten two sausage rolls and a croissant while editing this diary. And I’ve never felt fatter and prouder! That’s progress if you ask me!

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Young Woman Searches For Stranger Who Left Her £100 While She Slept On Train

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Strapped for cash? Money is tight for many people at this time of year and while we may long for a guardian angel or kind stranger to swoop in and get us out of the red, we generally have to just muddle through solo until payday.

But not 23-year-old Ella Johannessen, a Leeds Beckett University graduate, who woke up from a nap on a train to find £100 from an anonymous fellow passenger under a napkin on her lap on Saturday afternoon.

She had been talking about how "stressed and upset" she was about her financial situation on the phone to her mum while travelling on a Virgin Trains East Coast service to Leeds from Peterborough station.

She had been trying to locate £35 that was meant to have been sent to her via bank transfer, before hanging up, taking a brief nap and waking up to find a wad of £20 notes.

Johannessen documented the fortuitous, heartwarming incident in a now-viral Facebook post, which has racked up more than 9ooo reactions and 7000 shares at the time of writing. She urged people to share the post in the hope that the kindly person would see it.

"After speaking to my mum I hung up the phone and went to sleep, I woke up about half hour later and noticed a napkin on my lap," she wrote. "Under the napkin was £100. I started to cry – this is because I was incredibly thankful for your kindness to someone you don't even know.

"After a terrible 18 months where I lost my father and both of his parents, it showed me that there is kindness and good people in the world. I will pass your kindness on. I want to say thank you to the person who gave me this gift, I hope you will eventually see this."

She had found herself in debt after quitting her part-time job during the final year of her course to focus on her studies, she told the BBC, adding that she had decided to volunteer at a charity to continue the chain of kindness.

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A Plus-Size Model Just Reminded Us How Deceptive Retouching Can Be

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What you see online or in the media isn’t always the complete truth. This is not about putting anyone on blast but moreso a reminder to not compare yourself to anyone else. In this instance I can’t even compare myself to myself. These photos were shot around the same time; one obviously retouched and the other not. - When I look at the left images I’m like damn can I please look like that and its Fk$!n ME!?! If I can’t be that person on the left (which is absurd because it’s me) then I can only imagine the effect this has on women. I think my big arms, my cellulite, my back rolls, the dimples on my butt look fine in the natural shot. I can’t always have control of what other people do to my images but on my page I’m always going to keep it 100 with you. I think both images are beautiful but be realistic with yourself, you don’t need to look a certain way to be appreciated and know that you’re worthy.

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It's widely known at this point that things are not always as they seem on Instagram. Businesses, media companies, influencers and even "normal" people airbrush their photos – smoothing them out, removing blemishes and even changing the shape of their bodies entirely.

Sometimes the impact of this Photoshop dependence is harmless and we all get a good laugh (see: the recent Vanity Fair debacle), but in general, digital enhancement is considered to have a negative impact on our body image and self esteem. Indeed, countless studies have concluded as much.

So, props to one plus-size model who has shared side-by-side photos of herself to highlight the problem on Instagram. 26-year-old La’Tecia Thomas, from Melbourne, Australia, posted a series of images (above) to "remind people that what you see online isn't always the complete truth" and not to compare themselves to others.

"In this instance I can’t even compare myself to myself. These photos were shot around the same time; one obviously retouched and the other not," she wrote. "When I look at the left images I’m like damn can I please look like that and its Fk$!n ME!?! If I can’t be that person on the left (which is absurd because it’s me) then I can only imagine the effect this has on women."

She went on to praise her "big arms... cellulite... back rolls" and the "dimples on [her] butt" in the natural shots. "I think both images are beautiful but be realistic with yourself, you don’t need to look a certain way to be appreciated and know that you’re worthy."

Wanting share with you all again that it’s important to love yourself regardless of your size. I loathed how I looked on the left, and yes that is ME in both pictures. I was insecure, I compared my self to other women, constantly put myself down and never felt good enough, I’d rather be caught dead than seen in a swimsuit. The difference now other than the obvious is that I’m in a different mindset. I’m not saying that you will be happier on the opposite spectrum but I think it’s important to have a positive relationship between your mind and your body first and foremost at whatever size you may be. Also just a side note- I’m beyond grateful for the love and support from half a milli of you🙀! I love hearing your stories, you are the reason why I do what I do 💛🌻

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This isn't the first time Thomas has preached body positivity on Instagram. She has previously shared her struggles with loving herself and learning to accept her body, alongside many Photoshop-free photos. In one (above), she posted side-by-side images to say she was insecure and "loathed" herself at a smaller size.

"I was insecure, I compared my self to other women, constantly put myself down and never felt good enough, I’d rather be caught dead than seen in a swimsuit. The difference now other than the obvious is that I’m in a different mindset," she wrote.

"I’m not saying that you will be happier on the opposite spectrum but I think it’s important to have a positive relationship between your mind and your body first and foremost at whatever size you may be."

So the other day I put up a photo which had my usual self on display, all the rolls, cellulite and that good stuff. I had this dude leave a comment saying- ‘ugh, disgusting’. He had no pictures, typical. So I proceeded to go through the people he followed, turns out he only followed women who shall we say were perfectly sculpted. My problem with this why should I be considered disgusting because I dont have the ‘perfectly sculpted body’ like other women. I think a woman should do whatever the hell she damn well wants to do with her body and men should create a safe environment to allow a woman to be who she is. If she wants to be natural and have cellulite all up her legs and ass then so be it. If she wants to invest in a pair of fake tits or have fat injected into her ass then so be it, but dont come to my freaking page and tell me that IM DISGUSTING because I’m not what you like. Can you imagine how BORING this world would be if we all looked exactly the same. Freaking yawns😴 STOP COMPARING WOMEN TO OTHER WOMEN, THAT IN MY OPINION MAKES YOU DISGUSTING. Rant over. I’ll just be over here continuously posting all this fabulousness 😘☕️

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In another post two months ago, Thomas called out a male troll who called her "disgusting". She wrote: "He had no pictures, typical. So I proceeded to go through the people he followed, turns out he only followed women who shall we say were perfectly sculpted."

She continued: "I think a woman should do whatever the hell she damn well wants to do with her body and men should create a safe environment to allow a woman to be who she is.
If she wants to be natural and have cellulite all up her legs and ass then so be it.

"If she wants to invest in a pair of fake tits or have fat injected into her ass then so be it, but don't come to my freaking page and tell me that I'M DISGUSTING because I’m not what you like." Hear, hear.

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The Best Advice About Drinking To Follow After Dry January

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Were you among the millions of people who made the virtuous decision to abstain from alcohol this month? There's a good chance you were, because Dry January has gone from strength to strength in recent years. It's no longer a joyless public health campaign, but a positive lifestyle choice that denotes #wellness (and regrettably, in many cases, self-righteousness).

Regardless of whether or not you kept it up – or even what you think about the initiative – there's no denying that the premise is sound. Many of us could do with rethinking our attitude towards alcohol, and it sure helps to stir up a national conversation about the stuff. Why do we actually drink it, how does it affect us, and how can we develop a healthier relationship with it?

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These are questions we should be asking all year round – not just in January. Writer Annie Grace, from Colorado in the US, is a leading voice in the self-help sphere when it comes to alcohol. Having become a vice president in a multinational corporation at 26 years of age, she developed an excessive drinking habit and came close to losing everything before recognising her problem and tackling it in her own way.

Her latest book, This Naked Mind: Control Alcohol, explores the role of alcohol in our society, looking at psychological, neurological, cultural, social and industry factors. It provides comfort and actionable tips for those who have decided to shun alcohol entirely. For those who want to maintain #balance and alter their behaviour around drinking, it has some useful takeaways.

One of the most eye-opening pieces of insight is how our unconscious minds have been shaped over the years to recognise the benefits of alcohol. Grace believes the answer to developing a beneficial relationship with drink lies in rewiring your unconscious mind – the part that's responsible for your personality, desires, hopes, dreams and most importantly, your habits.

Does alcohol really relieve your stress?

"You need to break the associations your mind has made with alcohol and really examine them," she told Refinery29. "Does alcohol really relieve your stress? Do you actually enjoy the taste of alcohol? Are you more fun with alcohol? Does it help you sleep? You must stop trying to fix things with alcohol and see it as the source of the issues instead. Once you do you will have found freedom. It won’t be that you can never drink again or don’t ever get to drink again. Instead, you never have to drink again because you have no desire to."

As you'd expect, cutting back or quitting drinking entirely can result in a huge amount of anxiety, Grace admits. Will you be able to relax or have a good time without it? How will you get through the awkwardness of a first date? But once you make a change in your drinking through the techniques she advocates (below), she says the fear turns into joy. "Finding freedom from alcohol and your beliefs will allow you to release those fears and actually enjoy being alcohol free."

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Focus on what you’re gaining, not what you're giving up

Grace often hears from readers who never realised what they were missing out on by drinking, she told Refinery29. "They now have cognisant memories of time spent with family and friends. They remember conversations and movies they watched. They are more productive at work, saving money and improving relationships. They sleep better, they look better and they feel better. The list is endless. Rarely does one say I wish I had kept drinking. Because the reality is that they didn’t really lose anything other than heartache from stopping drinking."

Ditch your all-or-nothing mindset

"Don't set yourself up for failure," she insists. "This isn’t a pass or fail test. It’s an experiment. If you have a drink you haven’t failed. You’ve just added to your experience bank and can examine how that drink made you feel and if it was worth it to you."

Don’t be afraid to try

It's perfectly normal to find cutting down on alcohol challenging, Grace consoles. "It might reveal that alcohol holds more importance in your life than you ever imagined. That’s okay. No one is here to judge you. If I hadn’t gone through the same experience, This Naked Mind wouldn’t exist. Learning about yourself empowers you to change and become the person you’d like to be. Go for it."

If you are worried about your relationship with alcohol, contact Alcohol Concern for support and information. Call Drinkline on 0300 123 1110 for a free, confidential conversation (weekdays 9am – 8pm, weekends 11am – 4pm).

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Women Are Sexist Too, Even You

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Ask yourself a serious question: Are you, without meaning to be, sometimes biased against other women?

That is the starting point for feminist Mary Ann Sieghart’s Radio 4 Analysis programme, Why Are Even Women Biased Against Women?

Examples of women’s bias against other women abound. The programme begins with a snippet from an interview with multi-award-winning actress Anne Hathaway. Speaking about working with director Lone Scherfig on the movie One Day, Hathaway admits to “internalised misogyny,” saying she regretted not trusting Scherfig as much as she would have trusted a male director. Hathaway went further, saying that when she watched a film directed by a man, she focused on what was good about it; when it was directed by a woman, she tended to focus on what was wrong with it.

Next, Sieghart talks to US author Catherine Nichols who, when submitting her manuscript to (a majority of female) literary agents, only got two interested responses to 50 letters. Then Nichols did the old Brontë sisters' trick, changed her name to a man's and sent the same information again. This time she got 17 responses expressing interest. Turns out she was eight times a better writer with a male pseudonym.

That author’s experience may be anecdotal, but there is scientific evidence of bias too. A Yale study submitted different CVs with typically male and female names for the same lab manager job, with similar results. Not only were the male applicants seen as more employable and more competent, the male lab manager would be paid more, despite having an identical CV. What’s more, the bias was of the same magnitude, whether the hiring professor was male or female.

So gender bias exists and women are sexist too, with even avowed feminists unconsciously biased against women. But where do these discriminatory attitudes come from and what can we do about them?

The reasons for the pervasive bias seem to lie in the unconscious – the concepts, memories and associations mapped onto our brains and reinforced from early childhood.

Sieghart delves into the unconscious brain and the complex social process that fires our behaviour. (There is a very interesting comment about Twitter and how men tend to be more retweeted and liked – check your own social media to see if you are guilty of this.)

One commentator adds that men are continually associated with high status (just take a look at the make-up of almost every government or board of any FTSE 100 company). If every time we go to work, switch on the TV or radio, we see and hear men being associated with leadership and competency, then that is what we're going to believe. The more we are exposed to sexist attitudes, the more we become hardwired to be sexist.

Our implicit bias comes from socialisation and our culture – but it also goes as far back as our evolution. It's so deep we don’t even realise what is guiding how we behave. We might think we are unbiased in our conscious minds, but the bias is in our subconscious.

So what can we do about it? First, we have to want to do something about it. Then it’s time to face up to our own bias and challenge it. Sieghart’s parting suggestion: The next time you assume a woman isn’t competent until she proves otherwise, give yourself a slap, realise it’s your reptilian brain talking and that you aren’t a caveman…or woman.

Why Are Even Women Biased Against Women? is available on BBC iPlayer now and will be repeated on Radio 4 on 4th February at 9.30pm.

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This New Plastic Surgery Trend Sounds Like An Episode Of Black Mirror

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Social media has dramatically revolutionised the way the world works: We think differently, act differently, and interact with others differently when we have Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and Snapchat at our fingertips, a press of a button away from a portrait-quality photo, a location check-in, or a glimpse at a feed that tells you more than you'd ever need to know about someone you only just met.

And the just-released results of the American Academy of Facial Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery 's annual survey show that being connected has also kicked off a trend of what they're calling "selfie-awareness" — as in, altering your appearance to improve the way it looks in photographs, particularly of the self-taken sort.

Over the past year, 55% of facial plastic surgeons saw patients who cited wanting to look better in selfies as the reason why they were considering going under the knife — and that's up 13 percentage points since 2016, which means the trend is only growing year over year. That conclusion has an ominous whiff of an upcoming episode of Black Mirror to it, but it also makes perfect sense. While many voluntary plastic-surgery decisions are surely driven by the desire to "look better," in photos or otherwise, being satisfied with the version of yourself that you see in pictures now carries much more significance than just being immortalised in a photo album (or on your driver's license — but that's another story entirely).

"Consumers are only a swipe away from finding love and a new look, and this movement is only going to get stronger," AAFPRS President William H. Truswell, M.D., said in a press release. By that logic, a good selfie could make or break your ability to match with your soulmate — and those "tiny tweaks" we all make in FaceTune just don't hold up in person, no matter how dim the lighting is in any particular date-night restaurant.

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All The Looks From Black Panther's Purple Carpet

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Marvel’s blockbuster Black Panther doesn’t hit cinemas until February 12, but the anticipation is already reaching a fever pitch; tickets sold out so fast that even Luptia Nyong’o (who plays Wakandan operative Nakia) couldn’t get them. And this is one of those times, where the hype is totally worth it, because every newly released film trailer is seemingly better than the last. Plus, its female roles are diverse and multi-dimensional, with nary a petty rivalry in place, and its mere existence is helping bridge the pay gap for actors of colour. Oh, and did we mention Kendrick Lamar produced the soundtrack? The rapper told The Verge, that scoring Ryan Coogler’s film was a “great marriage of art and culture” — and there is no better visual representation of what all of these things mean to the culture at-large, than the red carpet during Monday night's premiere in Los Angeles. The dress code stipulated “royal attire,” and we'll be damned if that purple — the colour of royalty — carpet didn’t deliver.

It’s refreshing to see Hollywood’s leading black actors and actress take this opportunity to remind us that red carpets can be fun. No one skipped out (no shade to the Grammys), and there wasn't a sea of black dresses, either. Instead, actresses upped the ante by wearing bold colours and voluminous silhouettes, like Angela Bassett's stunning bright yellow Naeem Khan jumpsuit and Issa Rae's white Rosie Assoulin gown with a holographic inset. Nyong’o, meanwhile, matched the carpet in a regal custom Versace dress, and when she later uploaded a photo of herself to Instagram, she captioned it, “purple reign.”

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Janelle Monae in Christian Siriano

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Angela Bassett in Naeem Khan

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Lupita Nyong'o in Atelier Versace

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Issa Rae in Rosie Assoulin

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Chloe x Halle in Aura Tout Vu

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Yara Shahidi in Etro

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Marsai Martin in Maje

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Allegra Acosta in Martha Medeiros

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Angel Parker in Jovani Fashion

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Chadwick Boseman

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Ladies & Gentlemen: The Most Terrifying Movie Of The Year

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Horror fans have been fortunate over the past year with a bevy of creepy entertainment offerings, including Academy Award-nominated film Get Out and the trippy Netflix series Black Mirror. However, true lovers of the genre can never never really get enough of a fright fix. Thankfully, the brilliant minds over at A24 ( The Witch, Split) have introduced Hereditary, a film so shockingly good that some are saying it's "the most disturbing and terrifying" thing they've seen in years.

According to a press release, the film, which was written and directed by Ari Aster and debuted at the Sundance Film Festival, tells the story of a family whose "cryptic and increasingly terrifying" ancestral secrets begin to reveal themselves following the passing of the family matriarch. Throughout the bone-chilling trailer, star Toni Collette grapples with her loss while she and the rest of her family begin to unravel into chaos — we're talking people walking upside-down on walls, birds flying into windows, people getting set on fire, and a whole slew of other unexplainable events.

Watch the trailer at your own risk:

If you're at all skeptical whether the trailer revealed all of the good parts, viewers who were lucky enough to watch at Sundance are raving that Hereditary is even better in its entirety.

If the blood-curdling reviews aren't enough to convince you, perhaps imagining Hereditary as a more sadistic version of Lady Bird will help?

Though this particular movie mom seems, well, unhinged, there's no doubt Collette will deliver a compelling performance. Her portrayal of stressed-out single mom Lynn Sear in The Sixth Sense was simultaneously heartbreaking and horrifying. We can only imagine what she'll bring to the table as the one who witnesses paranormal phenomena.

Perhaps the scariest part of Hereditary? We have to wait until the summer for its release. It is out in the US on June 8, 2018 (UK release TBC).

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What It's Really Like To Be A Gay Teenager In Oklahoma

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I don't remember much about my high school drama class. I've forgotten the lyrics and the lines and even what the musical I was in was actually about. But there's one day I remember in vivid detail. I was 16 years old and staring up at Bea* painting scenery as I held the ladder to keep her steady. She was handsome in the way that women sometimes are, with deep brown eyes and curly hair that brushed the back of her neck, and I thought, "Wow, what an incredible person."

In that moment, I knew I was gay. But it took another four years to know that I knew.

I pushed those feelings down so deep that I didn't even recognise when I was having them. When Bea invited me to her house for lunch, I told myself I was so excited because I wanted to be her friend. And when she went on a date with my brother a few weeks later, I claimed that my raging jealousy was because I always thought I'd be the first to start dating.

It'd be easy to blame my reluctance to come out (even to myself) on a society that doesn't truly accept gay people, and that was certainly part of it. But leaving it at that ignores the laws that contribute to the shame LGBTQ+ people can feel. According to a new report from GLSEN, an advocacy group for LGBTQ+ students, a big part of whether or not you rationalise away your sexuality has to do with where you went to school.

I went to two different high schools in Oklahoma — one of seven states with "no promo homo" laws that explicitly forbid teachers from talking about being gay in a positive light or, in some cases, at all. Frankly, I'm not sure how many of my teachers even knew that Oklahoma law restricts their ability to talk about LGBTQ+ people, or if they were aware, whether they knew exactly what the law dictates.

Oklahoma's "no promo homo" law actually only restricts how teachers talk about AIDS — there are different versions of these laws in each state, some of which only prohibit talking about being gay in sexual health classes and some which completely prohibit teachers from "promoting homosexual lifestyles." A law in Alabama, for example, states that teachers "must emphasise, in a factual manner and from a public health perspective, that homosexuality is not a lifestyle acceptable to the general public."

In addition to Oklahoma and Alabama, other states that have these laws include: Arizona, Louisiana, Mississippi, South Carolina, and Texas.

In Oklahoma, the law doesn't actually tell teachers that they can't talk about "homosexuality" (an outdated and offensive term, btw). Instead, it requires them to talk about it, but only if they're teaching a section on AIDS and only in a negative way. When talking about AIDS, teachers are supposed to tell students that "homosexual activity... is now known to be primarily responsible for contact with the AIDS virus." (This is misleading — there are many ways someone can contract HIV/AIDS, including unprotected sex between straight people if one of them has the virus.)

One of the problems, GLSEN claims, is that teachers and school administrators don't understand the scope of these laws. So instead of recognising that Oklahoma's law only restricts how teachers talk about AIDS, some school employees may only know that Oklahoma has a "no promo homo" law and assume that it forbids teaching about LGBTQ+ people at all. That's why the report suggests not only fighting to repeal the laws that still exist, but also educating people in those states about what the law actually means.

With everyone around me ignoring my sexuality, is it really that strange that I ignored it, too?

Whether or not my teachers knew about the law, none of them ever acknowledged that gay people exist. It wasn't just that they didn't teach us about gay sex (they didn't teach us about sex at all, tbh), but they didn't teach us about queer people in history class or gay writers in English class. When my junior year English teacher assigned a book that had one gay character — Margret Atwood's The Handmaid's Tale — parents complained that the book was too racy and it was taken off the syllabus. When my best friend, the only out gay man at our school, petitioned to start a Gay-Straight Alliance, he was shot down by the school administration before the ink even dried on the signatures he'd collected.

The lack of supportive resources for LGBTQ+ students (like a GSA) is one of several negative impacts GLSEN's report found for students in states that have "no promo homo" laws. They're also less likely to: have teachers who are supportive of LGBTQ+ students, learn about LGBTQ+ topics on the curriculum, be protected by anti-bullying policies, have LGBTQ+ resources in the library, and have LGBTQ+ inclusive health services, according to the report.

It all adds up to an environment that pretends gay people aren't real — and with everyone around me ignoring my sexuality, is it really that strange that I ignored it, too?

Now, don't get me wrong, it's not like I didn't know that being gay was a possibility. Like I said, my best friend was the only out gay person at our school (there are now at least five more of us who've come out since graduation — including Bea). But, even though I loved my friend dearly, being gay still seemed like something only trouble-makers did. It was for people like him. People who were willing to fight with teachers and school administrators and their parents simply to exist. I wasn't one of those people.

Maybe if I'd had that GSA or had been handed the work of LGBTQ+ writers, like Audre Lorde and James Baldwin, I would've been the kind of person willing to argue for my existence. Maybe I would've come out at 16 instead of 20. Maybe instead of dating my brother, Bea would've dated me.

I can never know if any of those maybes would have been a reality, but it seems pretty obvious that forbidding teachers from talking about gay people, in any way, directly impacts how gay students see themselves.

It's been almost 10 years since I left high school, but I seriously doubt much has changed in my tiny Oklahoma town. In the years since I forced myself to ignore my feelings for Bea, there have probably been at least a handful more queer students who repressed their feelings because no one told them it was okay to express them. Imagine how many more there could be if laws like this are never repealed. Imagine how many there were before me.

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Is Wokeness In Fashion Just Another Illusion?

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Is fashion going through something like a #MeToo movement? Judging by the number of Instagram Stories denouncing style influencer and entrepreneur Miroslava Duma and designer Ulyana Sergeenko’s flippant use of the n-word last week, it certainly seemed like we were ready for one. Photographer Tamu McPherson and fashion editor Shiona Turini expressed disappointment in their street style peers on their Instagram Stories, and outspoken fashion personalities like blogger Nicolette Mason and stylist Rachael Wang reminded their Instagram followers that incidental racism is indicative of a web of institutional racism. There was even a petition that called for Business of Fashion to remove Miroslava Duma from its BoF 500 list of the most influential fashion professionals. “In light of Ulyana’s soggy apology, I keep thinking about what if there was a #metoo moment in fashion where we all began releasing stories of racial harassment?” tweeted writer Marjon Carlos.

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A screengrab from Miroslava Duma's Instagram Stories.

But after the 24-hour Stories expired, it became clear that the moment had little momentum. While Duma and Sergeenko were shamed out of finishing the couture-week circuit and Duma was removed from the board of children’s retailer The Tot, the repercussions failed to extend beyond just these two women. Instead of instigating a movement that exposed how deep racial discrimination runs in the industry, the incident caved in on itself. We took down two Gallianos; we did not dismantle a system of Weinsteins.

What is perhaps most frustrating is that the fact that racism exists in the fashion industry — sometimes in blatant, obvious, almost laughably tone-deaf ways — is no surprise to anyone, especially for the people who these slurs are directed. That two wealthy, white, Russian oligarchs would believe that anything — including the n-word — is available for their pleasure is, sadly, par for the course.

That said, the incident and reaction to it revealed an increasingly antagonistic paradox about the fashion industry—that it likes to see itself as eternally woke, but it’s also an establishment that is undeniably elitist. In other words, fashion is a bastion for tolerance, and fashion is also exclusionary. It is true that the industry has been among the most vocal industries to openly celebrate their LGBTQ creatives and their communities of color. But it is also true that if everyone is fashionable, then no one actually is. In this same dichotomy, $710 feminist T-shirts can become a runway trend and Instagram catnip, but 67% of women, at least stateside, can’t fit into its largest size.

This has also meant that for decades, “inclusion” has largely looked like only welcoming the thin, photogenic, and magnetic folks from these marginalised communities into the fold. Creating a universe on the runway and in advertisements that reflects the diversity of the world as beautiful, glamorous, and prestigious is crucial. Representation is key to social change. Seeing arbiters of culture and beauty deem non-dominant cultures as beautiful is essential. But, fashion’s Achilles heel is that we’ve seem to stop just short of real reckoning beyond simple representation and charity. Why does fashion demand boldness when it comes to style, but shirk from bold changes in thinking, behaving, and communicating?

Today, it’s clear that wokeness is at odds with exclusivity. And, this presents a problem for those like Duma and Sergeenko who profit from their perch. Like how designers have been trained to pick and choose inspiration like toppings in a salad, they’ve been trained to treat inclusivity as something “cool” to promote, much like how Sergeenko believed using the n-word was a way to be “as cool as these guys who sing it.” While I find it difficult to believe that Sergeenko nor Duma used the word in a malicious way (like one of their fan’s post that sprung up in their defence), it is evidence that their wokeness is barely skin-deep. The cost of projecting public wokeness while enjoying institutional exclusivity may be hypocritical, but it’s not difficult to navigate. In the day following the controversy ignited over Duma’s photo of the n-word, a transphobic 2012 video came to light in which she talked about how fashion influencer Bryanboy and model Andreja Pejic were dangerous role models for young boys. That video inspired the second Instagram apology of two days in which Duma said: “I have committed myself to a journey of personal growth, where ignorance has been replaced by acceptance, and discrimination by inclusion.” If the language reads as thoughtful, it was probably because it was most likely written by a fleet of PR experts.

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Duma also says something in the original video that reveals a lot about the ideology of the fashion elite: “I think a certain kind of refined culture is needed here,” she muses. She may have been talking about the perceived inelegance of gender-bending, but that sentiment can be applied to nearly everything in Duma’s world. Refinement is a set of gestures and a rarified presentation to express superiority and good taste. Though the definition of what is refined changes over time, the process is the same: Get the gestures and presentation down, and you’re considered “in” with the fashion establishment. That is as true in 2012 as it was in 1912. And, it’s definitely still true today.

So, what happens when wokeness — inclusivity, diversity, cultural sensitivity — is also considered good taste? Duma’s Instagram apology demonstrates she has the rudimentary vocabulary to express “wokeness,” even if their private lives may be unwoke. Some people have rationalised Duma and Sergeenko’s gaffe by pointing at the fact that they are from Russia, a country where Black citizens make up less than 0.02% of the population. But as many others have pointed out, they travel, operate global brands, and benefit from Western consumers. So, even though they are miles away from America both geographically and culturally, Duma and Sergeenko were able to give the illusion of American “wokeness” by ticking certain checkboxes.

Consider this: Had Duma and Sergeenko not used the n-word last week, we may have believed them to be some of the good ones. Sergeenko’s diverse couture week casting has won her accolades. Duma’s Buro 247 has published many articles celebrating celebrating plus-size fashion, advocating for inclusivity, supporting the Women’s March, and — ironically — calling out private displays of racism. That is a far cry from the private statements she gave in 2012, and it might have been evidence that she’s become “woke” in the days since. Except, of course, they didn’t understand what might be one of the simplest lessons in cultural sensitivity: White people do not get to use the n-word, even out of affection.

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But most of these stories are indistinguishable from those on most publications that rely on aggregation and reblogging. Understanding that, it’s hard then to be surprised that the outrage machine against Duma and Sergeenko replicates that system, with people screen-grabbing, reposting, and re-sharing the same feelings of anger and disappointment. At best, this educates those who may use the n-word that it is not okay to. At worst, it creates a false sense of accomplishment— that you’ve actually done something to change things, without having done much at all.

There’s something to be said about why the fashion industry has largely relied on the ephemeral Instagram Stories to express strong personal opinions instead of Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, or other more permanent platforms. One could reason that it’s because opinions are ugly and “mess up” a feed. But how can we demand permanent change, if our demands are impermanent?

It is a skill of the fashion industry that we are incredibly adroit at parroting the shape, look, and feel of anything, and make it seem attractive and desirable. That goes as much for wokeness as it does for runway trends. But unlike trends, the point of wokeness is not just that you’re merely dressed in it. It’s what you do with it once you’re awake.

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Afua Hirsch On Why It's Damaging When People Claim Not To See Race

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Afua Hirsch grew up in a genteel part of southwest London and went on to study at Oxford, but her privileged upbringing and successful career – she's worked as a barrister, and as Sky News' social affairs editor – hasn't prevented her from experiencing racial prejudice. In her brilliant new book Brit(ish): On Race, Identity and Belonging, she analyses and exposes the system which led her, as a mixed-race woman of colour, to question the very core of her own identity.

In the book, Hirsch outlines a compelling vision for change, arguing that Britain needs to acknowledge and process the way it profited from colonialism and the slave trade before it can build a new, more honest national identity. She also explains why it's so damaging when people claim not to "see" race, or ask a person of colour: "But where are you from?" Her writing is both intensely personal and incredibly resonant: whatever your background and racial identity, Brit(ish) will make you think. Reading it invites people to question their own behaviour, and the extent to which they've been complicit in a system that makes some people feel out of place in the country where they were born.

What was your aim when you sat down to write this book?

Basically I was trying to reach my younger self. When I was a teenager, I'm not exaggerating, I was in the full-on throes of an identity crisis. Constant othering, not having a space or a language with which to talk about my experience, and that not being an acceptable conversation to have, all compounded to make me feel so confused and alienated in my own world. I literally wrote this book because I wish there'd been a book like this when I was growing up.

In the book, you highlight how selective our version of "British history" is. Do you think we need to change what we teach kids in school, so they don't grow up thinking the UK has always been "in the right"?

Genuinely, one of the things I value about being British is our interest in history. Look at how many people visit National Trust properties on the weekend! And yet, what we teach our children is propaganda – it's an incredibly selective and biased version of the facts. And for me, I think that really jars with what we profess to be as a nation. I think it's really important that we accept we're not really being honest with our young people. It's not about – and this is something people sometimes accuse me of doing – indoctrinating people to think Britain is this terrible place. It's about equipping people to understand that this is a country that has been infinitely interconnected with Africa and Asia for hundreds of years. There's been a two-way flow of people and ideas. There have been these crimes – on a scale of crimes against humanity – that we've never discussed. There's this really complex picture and I think we're underestimating ourselves if we think we can't handle it. We can handle the truth, we can critically analyse it, and we can still create a sense of Britain as a nation that we want to be part of – one that's honest.

The book really made me realise how ludicrous the acronym BAME (Black, Asian, and Minority Ethnic) is; it implies there are only two identities: so-called "BAME" or white. And people so often use "diverse" in the same way.

Do you know what, someone asked me the other day, "As a diverse person, how do you feel about this?" I was like, diversity is not an identity! In all seriousness, a big part of the picture is whiteness – people don't understand whiteness. People still believe that whiteness is normal and everything else is other. And as long as that's your starting point, whatever word you're given, you're going to abuse it – often unintentionally because of the ignorance underlying your use of the word. I'm not trying to blame people: this is a society-wide problem, and it's a big issue for all of us, not just white people. A lot of black people have embraced BAME because it's what we've been told that we are. So it affects us in complicated ways and I want us to start interrogating it. I mean, these are intelligent people asking if you're a diverse person or calling you "BAME"! They're not applying any intellectual curiosity to these words because it's easier not to, and they're not expected to.

I think a lot of people who read this book will question the way they think and talk about race. Do you think the first step in breaking down the current system is making sure we, as a society, are more comfortable talking about racial issues?

Definitely. As a person of colour, a big thing in my life has been white approval. There's this idea that you shouldn't be problematic for white people, you should make yourself acceptable to them. So what I'd say to people who've had my experience is: "Don't self-censor to make yourself palatable because that's just perpetuating a problem and a dishonesty." And for people who haven't had that experience of being in a minority, I'd say: "Just be receptive to this conversation." I did a debate on Sky News just last week in which I had to defend the idea that I've had a different experience as a person of colour. There are people who say, "I don't see race, it doesn't matter, I've not experienced this, what are you talking about?" People say they don't see colour because they're deliberately trying to distance themselves from racism and prejudice. Obviously I welcome the sentiment that they're trying to distance themselves from prejudice. But I want them to understand that by saying you don't see colour, you're dismissing race as a system – you're dismissing your whiteness and my blackness and the way it operates in society. You're also insinuating that if you don't see my colour, you're doing me a favour, because it would be better if it just wasn't there.

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Do you think having Meghan Markle, a woman of colour, as part of the royal family can have some kind of positive effect?

Personally, I've never been remotely interested in the royal family. My entire life, the only role they played was just to serve as a reminder of how far I felt from being British. They're such a symbol of Britishness, but none of them looks like me or has names or a background like mine. So they were agents of my sense of exclusion, in a way. But now, I'm genuinely interested. I'm interested in Meghan Markle and what her experience going into that family is going to be like – interested and empathetic, I should add. Do you know what, obviously the royal family aren't like us at all. But their function is symbolic and with them the visual is very important. This doesn't make them any more like us, but it makes them look more like the rest of us. It also creates a question about identity which I can relate to.

Brit(ish): On Race, Identity and Belonging by Afua Hirsch is published 1st February

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Money Diary: 26-Year-Old Nurse In Newcastle Upon Tyne On 25k

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Welcome to Money Diaries, where we're tackling what might be the last taboo facing modern working women: money. We're asking a cross-section of women how they spend their hard-earned money during a seven-day period – and we're tracking every last penny.

This week we're with a full-time children’s critical care nurse, working the standard 12.5-hour shifts across a mixture of days, nights and weekends. Along with her husband she has recently bought a house, which they are currently renovating. She reckons most of their money is spent on food and they are both trying to eat healthier and exercise more. They're mindful of where they shop, looking at ethical companies, charitable contributions and trying to reduce their food mile footprint. Their best friend is a butcher locally, which reduces meat costs, and they have a weekly veg box delivery from an organic company. She doesn’t spend an awful lot on beauty products, but there may be an occasional splurge on premium beauty as her sensitive skin has been burned too many times by cheaper brands.

Industry: Healthcare
Age: 26
Location: South Tyneside
Salary: £25,551 plus unsociable hours and overtime
Paycheque amount: This varies monthly according to how many nights/weekends I’ve worked, and whether I have managed to do any overtime. Over the last year I’ve taken home between £1,570 and £1,950, but on average I get paid between £1,600-£1,700. In addition to tax and National Insurance, deductions include 9.3% pension, student loan (approx. £100), £82 bicycle loan, £24 car parking and £12 gym/staff social membership.
Number of housemates: One husband: self-employed musician/teacher, actually enjoys hanging out the washing (a job I detest), buys craft beer online and probably uses my Netflix account 95% more than I do!

Monthly Expenses

My husband and I have a joint account into which we transfer money on a monthly basis to cover the household expenses (bills, food, etc.). We have discussed going financially wholly joint (ie. all money goes straight into one account), however it’s easier for his end of year accounts/tax calculations to keep things separate for now. We have a joint savings account to dip into for household purchases/car insurance, which was obliterated when we bought the house. We also have our own private savings so that he can save for his yearly tax/National Insurance/student loan bills, and I can hide my own pitiful attempts.

Mortgage: Half of £510. My husband and I each transfer around £800 into the joint account to cover mortgage, household bills and food.
Loan payments: Student loan is deducted automatically. I have three credit cards for online transactions and to spread payments of expensive items. I pay the minimum amounts of these (around £40 total/month), and have a plan in place to pay off each one as their 0% interest period expires.
Transportation: I was able to pay both our car loans off just after Christmas, following the receipt of some inheritance money, saving us £350/month. £40 fuel, £40 Tyne tunnel pass.
Phone bill: £36
Savings? I try to save £200/month into my own account, and a further £100 into the joint account to cover bigger household expenses. I have a private pension into which I pay £40/month.
Other: £5.99 Netflix, £9.99 Spotify premium, £32 Royal College of Nursing membership/journal subscription.

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Day One

5.45am: Drag myself out of bed for yet another day shift. Realise that I have to clear a substantial amount of snow and ice off the car which will cut significantly into my vital morning coffee and ‘chill’ time (it’s winter; ‘chilling’ means hugging the kitchen radiator until I absolutely have to get dressed). Receive an email receipt from the veg box, £17.55. Check the joint account and realise that the veg box deduction overnight has taken us into the red (oops!), transfer £40 to avoid planned overdraft fees and to cover us until payday.

11.20am: First break. I’ve brought in the ingredients to make egg salad on toast – yum! Takes me around 10 mins to prepare due to an underripe avocado; seems my insistence on buying the cheaper ‘wonky’ veg is to the detriment of ripeness.

3.30pm: Second break. Enjoying the leftover stir-fry from last night. Congratulate myself on almost managing a whole month without visiting the hospital canteen for chips, beans and gravy (don’t knock it ‘til you’ve tried it!).

8.50pm: Finally make it home, absolutely exhausted. Husband is cooking pizza but the smell makes me feel a bit nauseous. I crash into bed instead.

Total: £17.55

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Day Two

8.40am: No work and a cheeky lie-in. Use the nice coffee beans for my morning hit but enjoyment is somewhat diminished by husband’s insistence on singing excerpts from his new musical theatre book at me – he has the words and I still know the lyrics better than him!

11am: Meeting a friend for lunch but feeling peckish. Eat two pieces of toast while making ‘compliment cards’ for my Rainbow unit and booking an eye test for next week.

1pm: Meet up with friend and baby for lunch, husband's lunch ‘date’ has cancelled so he tags along. We have to drive in individually due to later commitments on the opposite sides of town. I have a hot chocolate and chicken club sandwich with added chips but my eyes are clearly bigger than my belly, so I end up leaving the second half of the sandwich but eat all the filling (and chips!).

3.30pm: My friend leaves the café and my husband and I decide to have a further hot drink and shared cake while I quickly cut out the activity for Rainbows that evening – nothing like last-minute. Husband settles the bill, win!

7.30pm: The veg box arrived this morning and I review the contents for this week to make a meal plan which covers the next few days. Nip out to Morrisons with a short list, can’t find any ‘umami paste’ (what the heck Tom Kerridge?!) but do walk around the store with a discounted bottle of gin (£20 down from £28) before deciding we really can’t afford it before payday. I buy cheddar cheese, parmesan, fresh parsley and single cream ‘alternative’. Realise I forgot to check the cupboards for macaroni so chuck a packet of that in. £7.33

9.30pm: Late dinner following husband’s choir practice. Make macaroni cheese with broccoli – feel vindicated buying the extra pasta as there wasn’t enough left in the jar.

Total: £7.33

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Day Three

9am: Early start for a day off as meeting two more friends/babies for coffee. I use my prepaid Starbucks app to pay for the coffee, and an in-credit credit card to pay for my toast – I plan to cancel this card later in the week. £1.79

11am: I have a little shopping trip with the girls and buy an unnecessary new lip balm which came heavily recommended by a friend, and the hand balm I’ve been looking everywhere for and finally discover in Boots. I contemplate using my Advantage Card points but figure I’d rather save them. £6.34. I fear this shopping trip would have been fatal after payday!

12.15pm: We go back to Starbucks to feed the babies and I use the same credit card as earlier to buy a cortado. £2.25. This should take me back to neutral to close the account.

2.30pm: Drag Race All Stars 3 begins this week, but we don’t have access on our current TV package so I upgrade to the basic entertainment bolt-on for £7 from the joint account. Spend the next hour or so watching Friends on Comedy Central while eating a tub of cottage cheese and some toasted soda bread.

4pm: Go for a one-mile ‘jog’ (quick walk) around the block, trying to stay on target with my half marathon training this year. Come back home with the full intention to tidy the front room but end up sat on the sofa instead. Life’s all about balance y’know!

6.30pm: I’ve decided to make scones before dinner, or ‘flaky biscuits’ as the recipe calls them. Husband bought me a pastry cutter for Christmas which I haven’t had a chance to use yet. I pour myself a G+T which is largely ignored while I bake. The final product is fine but would be tons better with cheese!

8pm: Mushroom courgetti for dinner tonight utilising the two courgettes from this week’s veg box and the organic chestnut mushrooms I found in the reduced section on Sunday. Balk inwardly at the recipe's need for 50g of porcini mushrooms (a whole bag); I wonder if banks offer lifestyle loans for people looking to eat healthily, maybe with competitive rates of interest to promote weight loss… Now there’s an idea! Decide that I’m definitely going to have to start costing recipes out in the future, one bag of porcini weekly is definitely too much of an extravagance. Due to my failure to find ‘umami paste’ during yesterday’s shop, I use an 80:20 mix of tomato puree and Worcestershire sauce. Also manage to stab myself cleaning the spiraliser – this healthy eating malarkey is dangerous as well as expensive.

Total: £17.38

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Day Four

8am: Study day. I leave the house in good time to catch the metro into Newcastle; I buy a single ticket as I’ve lost my travel pass and husband will pick me up this evening, £3.40. Delays and a withdrawn train mean that the service is extra crowded, but the driver is full of Geordie wit, apologising for the conditions every few stations and urging passengers to ‘move down the central aisles and have a cuddle’. First meeting is at 9am but due to the metro delays, I don’t have time to grab a coffee.

10.30am: With the meeting over I head to Costa for a much-needed coffee (and an unnecessary but tasty pretzel/caramel blondie). £4.30

12pm: Frustrating morning of dodgy hospital Wi-Fi resulting in me using my phone to work. Eat last night’s leftovers for lunch in the staff canteen but have to pay 10p for a plastic fork. Head over to John Lewis to buy a new portable charger for my depleted phone battery; small debate over which card to use, however I’m hoping I’ll be paid before the transaction is properly deducted. £25

1.30pm: In a café and finally somewhere with working Wi-Fi! I order a pot of tea and get back to work, almost get my drink for free as the card machine's bluetooth is being dodgy. £2.65

3pm: Another meeting via the university library to obtain NHS membership – no more wasted study hours from dodgy internet connections.

5pm: Feet pulsing from the pavement pounding in pursuit of proper Wi-Fi (11,000 steps and counting), I head to my favourite bar where I know I can chill upstairs, have a nice cool beer and get some work done. Half a pint of an obscure tangerine-based sour beer, £2.94 after a 5% shareholder discount.

7pm: Still another 30 mins until meeting my husband so I order another drink, 1/3 pint of an 11% dark beer, £3.01 after a 5% shareholder discount.

8pm: Home for a Burns Night feast of haggis, neeps and tatties cooked by my husband, which makes it especially scrummy!

Total: £41.30

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Day Five

8.30am: IT’S PAYDAY!! We were paid a week early over the Christmas period, so it really has been a very long month indeed. I transfer my share of household expenses into the joint account; a little bit extra than normal as I managed to work some overtime in December. Husband prepares a very tasty breakfast of bacon, fried eggs, leftover haggis and mashed potato, I smother it all in ketchup and tuck in – don’t judge me, egg yolks taste far better with the added tomato!!

10.45am: Joint funds transferred, breakfast eaten and coffee consumed, it’s time to get down to the real business of the day. I open Chrome and review my Amazon basket, compiled over the last few days/weeks. I’ve changed my mind about a cookbook so remove that but add in the next two crime novels in the series I am reading. Free delivery with Prime, £24.56. The two products I wanted on ASOS are out of stock, and my husband is giving me evils over my payday splurge already, so I take a screen break.

11.30am: Finally find somewhere with the beauty products in stock, buy a clay mud mask and a liquid exfoliant, £27.99 plus £1.99 delivery (grr). I’m hoping this will help clear my skin up, as goodness knows I’m in need of a good facial pamper! Discover no more than five minutes later that I could have got free delivery if I’d spent over £30, damn!!

1pm: Arrival of the post reminds me that I need to extend our mail redirection for another six months, I’m absolutely paranoid about identity fraud – £93.98 from the joint account.

3pm: Nip out to Morrisons for a top-up shop. Finally buy that bottle of gin alongside tonic water (four pack), lemons, cottage cheese, prosciutto and bread, £27.82 from joint funds. Realise on the way home that we probably have enough leftovers to feed us tonight so will save the planned meal until Sunday.

6.15pm: Almost time to leave for work and I realise I haven’t topped up my tunnel pass! £45 which should get me to and from work over the next month (with balance to spare for any social events).

Total: £221.34

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Day Six

12.30am: Courgetti pasta leftovers on my break, really not feeling it and wish I had grabbed a bag of crisps on the way in.

8.45am: Home, bed. Absolutely exhausted after a really busy night. Set an alarm for 12pm so I can get up in good time to meet friends at 1pm.

1pm: Panic! Switched off my alarm and fell asleep again!! Message my friends and race to get ready and out; my eyeliner is almost immaculate, and I think I look fairly presentable – however I have worn the same outfit for three days running. Luckily, parking at the shopping park is easy considering it’s a Saturday. Bed to Costa in 30 minutes. Buy a medium black coffee and some fruit toast. £4.30

3.45pm: Absolutely starving so head to McDonald’s on my way home. Swerve the drive-thru in favour of sitting in as the queue is huge. I get two burgers and some fries from the saver menu. £3.07

5pm: Time to leave for a concert in Durham, I’ve necked another coffee so am feeling somewhat human. We leave 15 minutes later than planned as husband insists on telling me about all the meat he bought from our friend today. We pick up another member of his choir en route.

7pm: I bought my ticket a couple of weeks ago, so head to the front desk to pick it up. One bonus of being on my own is there generally seem to be spare seats fairly close to the front. I settle next to a handy pillar and read until the concert starts.

8.30pm: Husband’s choir was only in the first half, and the lads are itching to get back home. His friend pays for the car park as thanks for the lift. Both of us are starving so we head to our local curry house for dinner. There’s a half-hour wait for a table or takeaway, so we head across the road for a drink. I have a rhubarb and ginger G+T, husband has a bottle of Becks. £7

10pm: Dinnertime!! We skip starters and have a main course each, with shared rice and individual naans. As usual, I’m totally overwhelmed so take the remainder of my dinner home. I pay to make up for hubby treating me on Tuesday. £19.50

Total: £33.87

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Day Seven

10am: Have a lie-in to try and catch up with some missed sleep, slightly punctuated by husband getting ready and piling all his dirty washing on the bed – I get the hint! Load the dishwasher and heat up the curry leftovers to have with my coffee for breakfast.

11.30am: First coffee hasn’t cut it. Pour myself another, stronger cup and retire to the front room. Receive an email from Riverford about this week’s veg including an alert that the box contains fennel (urgh). Swap the box for one not containing evil, and add another bag of blood oranges as husband is obsessed and I want to do some baking with them; this transaction will be deducted tomorrow.

12.30pm: Remember that I need to transfer some money for a hen party in April. £22

2pm: I’ve been for a two-mile run and feeling peckish. Nibble on a bag of crisps from my work bag, I’m finding the fridge uninspiring so decide to visit Lidl. I buy a tiger loaf, black grapes and a juicer, £10.97 – that central aisle is lethal, something else to add to the cupboard of kitchen gadgetry!! Lunch is a couple of slices of the bread with prosciutto and cottage cheese (and another coffee).

4pm: I really need to clean the kitchen today, so I crack open a bottle of wine and blast the Disney tunes; if you can’t have fun on a Sunday afternoon, when can you?!

7pm: Finally have a sip of that wine, having scrubbed the kitchen and made a blood orange cake. Wish I’d opened a bottle of red now as it would have oxygenated beautifully! Use the cake cooking time to read some more of my current book – it’s very unlike me to be reading in bits like this, usually I devour a novel in one sitting.

8pm: Husband is finally on his way home from work and a friend is coming over for drinks. Dinner is a quick 15-minute pasta, it uses up the entire bag of kale from the veg box and is really tasty, definitely one to repeat.

10.30pm: The drinks are flowing as nobody has to get up tomorrow morning. I go on my laptop to change the song, end up on Amazon and make a tipsy purchase of two cookbooks and a novel, whoops. £33.70

Total: £66.67

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The Breakdown

Food/Drink: £114.48
Entertainment: £65.26
Clothes/Beauty: £36.32
Travel: £48.40
Other: £140.98

Total: £405.44

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The Tan Bag Is Back: Invest In One Of These Keepers

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From the Spring/Summer 2003 Luella Bartley-designed Mulberry bag named after Gisele to Proenza Schouler's 'anti-It Bag' PS1, the tan bag has weathered the ebb and flow of trends. Now, for SS18, it's back and more desirable than ever.

Sure, for the past several seasons bold, bright bags have ruled, with '90s monogramming enjoying a particular renaissance right now, but that only amplifies the appeal of the tan bag. In its neutrality – of both colour and material – it makes a great bedfellow for nearly every item in your wardrobe, and in eluding garish prints or outlandish finishes, it avoids becoming dated. What with fashion's current maximalist aesthetic, perhaps we're all craving the quiet stability of a tan number.

"This season it’s all about tan bags; we saw them everywhere from the likes of Gucci to Chloé, and we’re already seeing this shade filter through into AW18," Hollie Harding, accessories buyer at Browns, says. "Neutral colours such as tan are a really great base to have in your wardrobe and in my opinion are poised to replace the classic black bag for SS18."

Givenchy was among the brands that revived the classic handbag for SS18 with its micro belt bag with central buckle. Altuzarra's braided handle and tasselled tan bag brought a touch of the Wild West to its show, while J.W.Anderson debuted the most luxurious mixed-leather bag with gold finishings.

Off the catwalk, who should we be watching for the best pieces this season? "Loewe is definitely one of my go-to brands for the perfect tan bag and this season they’ve introduced several new styles, including a beautiful woven leather tote in addition to their classic puzzle and hammock-style bag," explains Harding. "Alongside Loewe, both Staud and Wandler have absolutely nailed the tan bag and are definitely brands to invest in now. The Staud ‘Moreau’ bucket bag and Wandler’s ‘Hortensia’ bag both have a great price point and are key shapes for the season."

Much like leopard print and denim, a timeless tan bag can be reimagined in countless ways, and is therefore one of the smartest buys you can make. Click through to find our pick of the season, from designer to high street.

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Simon Miller's Bonsai bag was seen in the hands of every street styler on our Instagram feed. When it's this sweet, can you blame them?

Simon Miller Bonsai 15 Mini Leather Bucket Bag, £385, available at Net-A-Porter

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Style meets substance with this shoulder bag by Parisian brand, Elleme. It's a simple, timeless piece that'll fast become your staple accessory.

Elleme Raisin Cognac, £425, available at Elleme

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Practical Parisian chic at it's finest.

Moreau Paris Mini Brégançon Leather Baranil Fauve, £2,110, available at Moreau Paris, 21 Bruton Street, W1J 6QD.

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We love the triple gold hardware on this Zara bucket bag. Big enough for work papers, convenient enough to carry all day.

Zara Bucket Bag with Studded Detail, £29.99, available at Zara

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This is how to do macramé in 2018. Staud offers many contemporary and covetable handbags, but we think this one will see us right through until summer.

Staud Moreau Macramé and Leather Bucket Bag, £310, available at Net-A-Porter

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The hobo shape and simple details on this Topshop bag make it look far more luxe than the price tag suggests.

Topshop Harper Hardware Hobo Bag, £34, available at Topshop

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A classic tan in a not-so-classic shape makes for an interesting staple that'll set your bag apart from the rest.

Wandler Brown Leather Hortensia Shoulder Bag, £700, available at Browns

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Trust Mango to come up with a fantastic high street alternative; we're wearing this both cross-body and with circle in hand.

Mango Circle Handles Bag, £49.99, available at Mango

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Everything from the horseshoe-shaped bottom to the shade of the leather screams rodeo – we're pairing with a Chloé-inspired floral dress and cowboy boots for a nod to this season's badlands trend.

Chloé Small Nile Cross Body Bag, £1,190, available at Harrods

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Uterqüe is fast becoming our go-to mid-range store, with high quality pieces that don't cost the earth. This leather tote is in our shopping cart thanks to the off-kilter handle hole.

Uterqüe Mini Leather Tote Bag, £120, available at Uterqüe

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It's hard to go wrong with a classic leather, cross-body bag and chain strap. Versatile enough to be worn as a clutch, it's the perfect size to fit all your daily essentials.

C.Nicol Georgia Bag, £287.50, available at C.Nicol

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Our adoration for J.W.Anderson knows no bounds, and his work at Spanish brand Loewe is just one reason why. We've fallen hard for this trapeze-shaped number.

Loewe Hammock Leather Bag, £1,895, available at Selfridges

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Cult Beauty Brand Kate Somerville Has Arrived In The UK

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Skincare fanatics rejoice, because cult US brand Kate Somerville is launching in the UK tomorrow. Available exclusively at online retailer Cult Beauty, the initial offering will be made up of 13 products from the brand's bestselling lines.

For those unaware of the brand's story, Kate Somerville is a skincare expert and has been treating clients' skincare concerns for over 25 years. She has a clinic in LA, where she boasts innovative technology and an A-list client base ranging from Jessica Alba to Kate Hudson. Already adored by Caroline Hirons, it doesn't get more cult than Kate's eponymous brand.

So why now? "In the US, and even more specifically in LA, we’re at the forefront of beauty innovations and trends," Kate tells Refinery29. "We have access to the most cutting-edge treatments and technologies in Los Angeles. There has been a strong interest in the Hollywood lifestyle coming from the UK consumer – that demand exists for us in the UK."

Alongside launches from the brand's lines, ExfoliKate, EradiKate and Wrinkle Warrior, there will be more product launches throughout the year, plus, she says, in spring "we'll be introducing a more brand-immersive experience for consumers in London...more to come!"

With such an extensive range on offer, which are the best introductory products for those who haven't managed to sneak one or two into their suitcases following a US trip? First up, Somerville advises, is ExfoliKate Intensive. Exfoliating is one of the most important steps in skincare and is the key to brighter, smoother and more even skin texture.

"Exfoliating sloughs off dead skin, and helps subsequent products work more effectively. My ExfoliKate contains both physical and chemical exfoliation. I have all of my celebrity clients using it. We call it 'Hollywood’s two-minute facial' because it truly gives you that Hollywood glow in just two minutes!"

Next is a launch based on her number one in-clinic facial, the DermalQuench Oxygen Treatment. "My DermalQuench Liquid Lift combines hyaluronic acid with the power of oxygen to deliver immediate hydration, while instantly plumping and smoothing skin. I never travel without this product in my bag," she says.

Finally, the EradiKate Blemish Treatment, which includes one of our favourite spot-busting ingredients, sulphur. "This is a must-have when experiencing a blemish emergency! It’s a spot treatment that will dry out your blemish overnight."

Will there ever be a bricks-and-mortar store and treatment room for UK obsessives to experience Kate's magic firsthand? "Yes, there will be a physical environment coming, but I can’t reveal the details quite yet…" she assures us. "Keep checking our social media channels for the most up-to-date news!"

Kate Somerville launches exclusively at Cult Beauty on 1st February.

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Kirsten Dunst Confirms Her Pregnancy In New Rodarte Campaign

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Outlets reported on Kirsten Dunst's rumoured pregnancy earlier this month when paparazzi spotted what appeared to be her pregnant belly while she was at the airport with fiancé Jesse Plemons. However, she had yet to confirm to the pregnancy herself, because apparently she had something grander up her sleeve. On Tuesday, the star appeared in a series of photos for Rodarte's Fall/Winter 2018 lookbook, belly on full display — her first official confirmation of the news.

Photographed by Autumn de Wilde and styled by Ashley Furnival and Shirley Kurata, Dunst appears in several different outfits alongside other stars such as Tessa Thompson, Miranda July, and Chloe and Halle.

"We are thrilled to feature women who inspire us in our Fall Winter 2018 portrait series," designers Kate and Laura Mulleavy said in a statement, according to E! News.

De Wilde posted the series of photos on her Instagram, and it's safe to say there's no more elegant way to let the world know you're expecting.

"So honored to have photographed this incredible collection and these incredible women," the photographer captioned the snaps.

"It was hard not to cry as I took these photos. Such a beautiful mother. Such a beautiful friend. Such a powerful woman," she added.

This isn't necessarily shocking news from the actress, who's been in "baby mode" since 2014.

"It’s time to have babies and chill," she said in the July cover story for Marie Claire U.K. last year. "I wasn’t one of those 'I need a baby!' people until my goddaughter was born. I love her so much. That love is just like… you can’t experience that unless you have a kid. I put her to bed last night and she woke up this morning and said to her mom, 'Where’s Kiki?' I just love that love. That’s what I want."

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Why Hot People Vote Tory

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Physical attractiveness is to some extent subjective (thankfully). But some people are widely considered more "hot" than others, thanks to factors like facial symmetry and height, and seem to swan through life because of their good looks. They're the ones who wangle their way out of parking tickets and get free coffees in Pret.

But their appearance also plays a more influential role in their lives, affecting their political beliefs, new research suggests. The more physically attractive you are, the more likely you are to be rightwing and identify as conservative, according to a study published in the Journal of Public Economics.

“Controlling for socioeconomic status, we found that more attractive individuals are more likely to report higher levels of political efficacy, identify as conservative and identify as Republican,” wrote researchers Rolfe Daus Peterson of Susquehanna University and Carl L Palmer of Illinois State University in the US.

Previous studies have backed up the idea that if you're "hot" you're more likely to be treated better throughout your life. This is known as the "halo effect", whereby someone's perception of you can be influenced by a specific positive trait (in this case, good looks).

The positive treatment that good-looking people are used to as they grow up, and their easy-breezy life experiences, can shape their political views, the researchers said. They develop a "blind spot", whereby they're less able to understand others' hardships, an attribute that's more often associated with those on the political left.

"In a sense, attractive individuals have a blind spot that leads them to not see the need for more government support or aid in society," the researchers wrote. "Given that this is one of the tenets of the more liberal citizens, as well as supporters of the Democratic Party, we would expect that more attractive individuals would develop a worldview that is less supportive of government intervention and aid to others."

However, the authors admit that while physically attractive people find it easier to "navigate the social world" on average, they don't all have easier lives and, of course, they are not all rightwing. “All attractive people are not conservative and not all unattractive people are liberals."

The authors concluded: "It makes sense that attractiveness would further alter political interactions and beliefs. Yet, attractiveness, beyond the elite-level of political candidates, is rarely examined in political behaviour...Our physical body is frequently overlooked in political science where the competition is framed around hearts and minds, but this analysis shows that our physical attractiveness can significantly shape our political behaviour."

We get it, but how do you explain Donald Trump, Nigel Farage or Boris Johnson?

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